The end of my smoking

Yes it's true i have bitten the bullet and given up smoking at long last. It is now day 11 of my as a none smoker, it's not been so easy b a long shot but i would not be here if it was not for my other half linda.

The idea on me giving up smokes was from when i woke up at 2am with a pains in my chest after 16 years of smoking nearly 20 a day. now using pacthes and will power i am sure i will be abule to kick the habbit for good. Also i founf out that the dvd's i made for lin's sister are just what they wanted so im happy.

A sad day In the life of earlobes

Today i found out that my 4 year old daughter who i left in London with her mother (Amanda), has been put on the at risk register. I have to say that this is not a surprise to me in any way, her mum's such a slob. I only found out when the Amanda's mother phoned me to find out the e-mail address for the man that Amanda kicked me out for.

From what i can work out from three phone calls one from Amanda's mother plus social service, the child was taken away from Amanda around Christmas time for X number of weeks. they where returned to her after she showed that she could manage the house work but the eldest child refused to go back.

So now things seem to be in mess for my daughter. I don't want come across as the bad man in all this but how can I just stand back and watch my daughter be abused in this way, I don't have any bond with my daughter what so ever, Amanda has done everything she can to stop me from speaking to her as i live in Liverpool now. My plan is to get the bond back with my daughter and be there if she needs me as i refuse to see her go into care, if your reading this then i would like you to remember that there are people out there that love there kids and yet there ex-partners make it hard for them to keep contact so don't be that person.

thinking again

the other night i could not sleep and sat there watching something on BBC4 about the war in Iraq. I know this is probably wrong but something they said made me think about what was going on there.

It was said that why are the Iraq people classed as terrorist's for fighting to get the Americans out of there country, would we not do the same if they did this to us and would we then be classed as terrorist. Again this made me think about why America is still in there after getting sadam, they lasted years with sadam ruling them in such nasty ways perhaps these people don't want to much change i know that if the way England was run would change, people would be in up roar.

Oh well that's my brain for you.