I'm struggling again with the voice in my head. It's not anyone else it's definitely mine but keeps telling me to hurt myself and others. Last week it was telling me to burn myself with a can of petrol and everyone else I care for.
It's getting harder every day to fight with it I know it's wrong and I talk back to it telling it that it's wrong but it will not go away. I've been the doctors and out on antidepressants and referred to the mental health team, but I'm still waking up just wanting to end my life I'm worried I'll give in with all my health problems it's starting to make sense arguing with me saying why suffer anymore I'm not going to get any better.
I wish it would go away just let me be the happy person I was I hide it from everyone I didn't want people finding out because i don't want to be locked away never to be seen again. But I've been getting rage it's strange I'll be in bed and all if sudden just get this feeling of rage. I'll tense up wanting to lash out for no reason. It's hard to not do this but it's not me I've never been like this I've always been the joker the class clown.
I'm worried.
